Holiday!

Hello Hello,
I am finally on break now! Woohoo. The madness is over. Just came back from a Malacca trip two days ago, had lots of fun and new experiences. Hehe. This week is going to be one busy week for me. Got to attend a meeting later and am going off to Kuantan tomorrow with family till Sunday. :D
I hope in the next few weeks I'll be busy or else I'm gonna rot at home. But thankfully, I have some jobs to do so yeah I hope it'll keep me occupied.
Had lunch with Melissa and my classmates yesterday. It was fuuuuuuuun. Meow.
This is such a random post. Woof.

I want you to stfu.

Alright fine. I know I have been a procrastinator, not doing my work and handing up assignments on time. But now, I want to change. My motivation is to have all ofyou shut the fuck up. That's right, if I have done all my work, I can finally say shut the fuck up, I've done my part.

You, just dont fucking get it. You don't think about how I feel.
So you know what? Fuck you, fuck your attitude and fuck myself for caring about you.

Fuck-night-all.

Red eyes.

I am currently having heat rashes because of the damn heat! But thankfully, it's raining now. At least it'll help in cooling the weather.

Now, this is random, nothing to do with the weather but it has something to do with someone. I don't know how to say it and I dont undertand it. But I wanna be honest here, I want you. Yes, haha, I want you so badly. Damn it cause I can't tell you that. Mehhhhh. :(

Tick Tock BOOM.

I feel the urge to explode, to burst out this feeling inside of me. The anger, the sadness, the stress, the unsatisfiedness and everything else that's bothering me.

I have many things to say, many things that I want to do but can't, and many other things that I wish could solve on its own.

I don't think the people around me completely understands me. Goodnight.

Wake up.

If I could slap you and make you realise about what you're doing, I might.

Wake up!

Is this what I want?

It's March. Just finished the third semester. Now, after this semester, it has got me to really think about what I want to do, what I want to achieve. It is true, that if I die now, it wouldn't make a difference. I have not done anything to make my life worth living. If I tell this to others, they say I'm still young but heck no, I think I'm too old!

I really need to focus on what I want to achieve, which is to make a difference, a change to the world. Of course that is impossible, but if I could change the people around me in a bigger scale, that would make me smile on my deathbed. I am really thinking about why I've decided to joined the Performing Arts and slowly realising the power of theatre.

However, there's also the fear that I won't achieve my dreams. I have too many what if questions in my life. What if, I think big but never achieve any of it? How should I start? What can I do?

I need to put aside the little things that is and will bother me. I need to focus on achieving what I want first.

Dot dot dot.

"I'll keep running till you tell me to stop and make a U-turn."