Is this what I want?

It's March. Just finished the third semester. Now, after this semester, it has got me to really think about what I want to do, what I want to achieve. It is true, that if I die now, it wouldn't make a difference. I have not done anything to make my life worth living. If I tell this to others, they say I'm still young but heck no, I think I'm too old!

I really need to focus on what I want to achieve, which is to make a difference, a change to the world. Of course that is impossible, but if I could change the people around me in a bigger scale, that would make me smile on my deathbed. I am really thinking about why I've decided to joined the Performing Arts and slowly realising the power of theatre.

However, there's also the fear that I won't achieve my dreams. I have too many what if questions in my life. What if, I think big but never achieve any of it? How should I start? What can I do?

I need to put aside the little things that is and will bother me. I need to focus on achieving what I want first.