I hate this part.

Hmm I wonder how should I start this post.
I am tired of this feeling that I have. I want it to stop, but I'm not giving in just yet.
I am very annoyed at the moment, a little angry as well but also sometimes feeling really terrible.

However, I wanna say, it's really tiring to keep on trying or to put the FIRST effort. It will be nice if they started something first. For example, you keep talking to them first but they don't do the same and are, most of the time expecting you to start a conversation first. It's ridiculous, really. They only make the person who keeps trying, look and feel bad. Want to know why? Because once in awhile, if they start a conversation first or anything first, then it'll make others, who keeps trying feel good. I may not make very much sense here. Hmm.

My points is, I am quite sick of having to be the first to talk or start a conversation first. And sometimes, when I do talk first, I'll only get let down. Why? Because all they'll say is a word and they leave the entire convo to you to keep on talking. By doing this, I am sometimes confused. Makes me feel like I'm bothering them so badly that they only responded with a word. It also makes me feel very unappreciated or maybe I can say bagai tepuk tangan sebelah.

I want them to realize, I have feelings too. It's really not just about them.